I'm not the only one who is broken

I don't know. Thoughts are surging and bubbling in my head and I can't get them out. And I can't tweet about them either. They will either not make it within the character limit or I just do not wish for people to read them. Not that I have anything to hide. It's like casting a line, and waiting for someone bored enough to reel it in and check it out. Okay I'm rambling. Fuck. But it's okay. This is my diary. I was unable to find a spare notebook lying around in hall so blogging is the next best thing. After all this is the Information/Network society era, so says my New Media readings. Rambling helps. It clears up my mind. It relieves my angstiness. I'm pretty sure I just coined that word right up. ah who cares really.

Lately, I've been ruminating a lot. And as a psychology major, I know that's bad. But I can't help it. It has been a very distracting semester. I thought I can do better, after the disastrous end to 2010. Y'know, brand new start to 2011 all. And I'm now 21! I'm supposed to be more mature and all. But fuckkk, it's like permanent derailment. I don't even remember where's my destination anymore. I used to be so sure of myself. I miss that surety, that certainty.

I hate the way I am right now. There, I've said it. I can't blame 'life'. I always go FML but what I usually really mean is FuckwhatMidoingwithmyLife. You can't blame people for your bad decisions, which end up in shitty moments. so yes. Even though I'm extremely whiny, I like to think I whine responsibly.

Ah I've run out of steam. And reading back, it was a bunch of derailed thoughts once again. whatever. I just hope to find back my path. Right now all I'm seeing is overgrown weeds. With treacherously sharp stones. And misleading signs.

I'm feeling distracted

And likewise attracted

To all the things that you let me know

To all the things that you can't let go

You're waiting for friction

The empty addiction

Is forcing me to intervene

Let's break out of this scene

I know I'm not alone

I'm not the only one who is broken

And I know I'll never let you go

I could watch the world pass by

Just as long as it's you and I

SEIZING THAT RANDOM URGE

I'm pretty sure by now nobody visits this place anymore :D heck, even I took 4 tries to finally log in. Oh my, how time flies. My last post was about psych camp OG outing?? It's like, I'm the freaking ogl now of the next generation of psych campers! hahaha. How amusing to look back at my older posts. I even looked through my lifejournal account. hahaha very random I know. When I'm actually supposed to be studying.

A brief update on my life now: currently in my Year 2, staying in hall, still single (hahahha no update on this actually)

Meh. My life is consumed entirely by studying now. I really wish to achieve that CAP 4.0 y'know. I wonder how many people take me seriously when I say that. I actually heard from someone today that I've become 'so mugger' lately. Whoa really? I really want to take that as a compliment lor. But no, I know that I can't be considered as a mugger yet. Still far from it. I need to stop needing sleep. Or taking 4 hour naps. Or facebooking. Or tweeting. Or ten million things la, basically. So far from my ideal self.

One thing I'm really glad though, is that despite so many changes in my life over the years, there remains one constant: jiemeis. hahahha it's been some time this term was actually used. Sounds too cheena and childish now I guess. haha. Okay yeah, some people are no longer so close anymore but some of us are still as tight. Really glad about that (: It's my safety net. My parachute. I know I won't go very wrong if I constantly turn to them. Thanks, loves!

This semester has been pretty eventful actually. Many people walking in and out of my life. Not sure who are permanent yet, but time will tell. But I'm not very optimistic actually. haha. Especially in hall, who are actually gonna remain in my life after I graduate?

Quite psyched about halloween this year! And for the first time, I'm attending DnD woohooo. Though somehow the mood is dampened by all the seating arrangement, who's going/not going issue. Hiyo, university already. Why people still so clique-ish ah??

Man, such a big hole in my pocket. Actually it's more than a big hole. That's an understatement. I'M BROKE. URGH. What with DnD, halloween, idkwhatssssssssssssssss. okay getting anxious and panicky now thinking about my financial situation. I'll just.. live on air. I can do it.

urgh D:

okay gotta go back and hit the books now. till my next random urge!

More than words

I came here with every intention of blogging about Psych Camp. Ah, but I'm not really good at re-telling past events blow-by-blow. So, just make do with some photos yeah? I'll insert a few captions here and there though ^^

First, I gotta present the main cast: CHIC-KA-BOOM!

Awesome facils + interesting friends = <3

One out of the million and one photos we took during PhotoHunt.

David, the guy doing CPR, was supposed to be doing some smooching but oh well things can't always go our way. Anyway our group flag provides a very literal representation of our group name. Go chic-ka!

Let's fast-forward to Finale Night yeah. Where every group had to prepare their own skit to present their version/conclusion of our Murder Investigation.

Umm, middle of our skit.

Murder scene. No idea why the Lord Freud being killed is smiling.


There you go, Psych camp 09 Saboteur :D

Haha what slipshod recounting. But honestly, like the title of this post says, what I went through was more than words/pictures can say. I'll just cherish all the memories, and try to pass it on next year if I can.

Can't wait to start Uni (:

Farewell, lovelies!

Yay I'll be off to camp tomorrow! Feeling rather psyched.

It's 12.30am and I'm here blogging/whining/listening to music/on facebook even though I gotta be at NUS by 9am.

I'm only halfway through packing.

I can't find a single bloody toiletry bag because my parents are sleeping and I am assuming all the toiletry bags are in their room.

I think I am overpacking. Yet I do not possess the two items that we were 'highly advised' to bring.

Oh damn just realised I can't pack my towel because my parents are asleep and all the towels Are in their room.

Why am I always doing this to myself?! Aargh Angeline is so right.

Funnily, all this panic are not translating into actions. I think Bon Jovi's Bed of Roses really rock. So soulful and soothing.

Ok, so I've got all the toiletries assembled on the kitchen table. Shall stuff them into the first toiletry bag I can find in the morning. Along with the towel.

Wow, think I'm almost done now. Not bad.. So seeya people after Thursday!

<3

Hello, world!

This past week has been pretty lively for me. It's almost akin to a hermit moving out of his mountain to live in the outside world ^^

Went clubbing with idiot woman, Cindy and her bird. Failed my first driving test bohooo. Finally visited the much raved about Tea Party (It was truly delightful actually. Thanks for the introduction, Cindy!) Met Cindy tons of times for our ribbon empire. Went driving with my Mom, in which she concluded that my failure was perfectly justified. Went shopping with Angeline and saw my savings take a nosedive. All pretty much in chronological order. And with all the tuition slots in between, jiemeis will be very proud of my re-entering the human society.

Wow. That was an entire week's worth of post in one paragraph. Wonder why I never could be this concise with writing Summary in GP. Hmmm.

Oh, I finally received an email from NUS language preparation programme! I've been accepted for the German course. I WILL BE LEARNING GERMAN. Hahaha. And, if i'm terribly lucky and sufficiently talented in German, I might be able to go for the Students Exchange Programme to Germany!! EUROPE, here I come!!

Very excited.

Oh oh and Psych camp is next week!

Make it Very, very excited.

Lala~ Life is finally moving at human speed. It has been crawling on at sloth's pace for the past 6 months.

Man, university is starting in one month! ONE. It's very contradictory, really. On one hand, life has been chugging on monotously and drearily. Yet, just like that, 7 months have flew by! Time is such a tricky creature. Tsk.

Btw, the person parasailing in the photo is ME :D It was my second time. That photo is taken in Phuket! I totally forgot about it. Haha.

An unintended new beginning.

After helping in the creation of fragmentary-blue and webloodyhatekids, I have developed a slight fetish in creating blogs. Haha so here I am with a brand new blog, when my current livejournal is so dead the last post was in February. What a dampener for a welcoming post, but I don't see this lasting too ^^

Anyway, one of the main reason for this blog is to advertise fragmentary-blue! Cindy and I have tried our hands in making adorable ribbon bows and discovered that we have some talent in it. So we are gonna put up some for sale (mainly to recoup our losses actually). Haha so do drop by frequently!

Here are some photos taken from my pathetic 2megapixel camera phone:

They are just so adorable. For further information please visit http://www.fragmentary-blue.blogspot.com/

Yay.

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